Feeling the Blah’s

I’ve been meaning to do a blog post for a few days now. Actually, closer to a week. Obviously hasn’t happened. It hasn’t been from a lack of things to say, just a lack of focus. Feeling really scattered and, well… blah!

Summer is finally here and it’s been quite hot which hasn’t helped. Plus it’s my menstrual cycle – I know, TMI, but that’s the glorious thing about it being my blog – I can say what I want! And as probably every woman can confirm, this time of the month can outright suck – so top this with the accompanying hunger and cravings, not helping! Last week was also to 4 year anniversary of my dad’s death and this year I found it really hard. My husband figures it’s because of all the isolation the last few months and not having the distraction. My mom has also had a rough time this year so maybe hubby’s statement has some truth to it.

I also got some news last week that I’m not really happy about though most people probably would be. I got a call from my boss and I got a promotion – I think I’ve mentioned I’m in the military. Promotions are usually a good thing, but this one, from what everyone has said, sucks. You get a minimal pay increase with way more responsibility. Everyone I have talked to has told me to bust my ass to get to the next promotion ASAP. Unfortunately, with a promotion also comes a posting and that’s the part I don’t like. I really like my office and everyone I’m working with – though it sounds like most people are getting posted out as well. I’d feel better if I knew where I was going, but nothing has been confirmed yet. As well, the rank I’m promoted to has additional training which I’m not looking forward to. I was hoping to put it off another year, but not so much.

I think everything over the past week has just compounded into this feeling. Half way through the 11th week off work and isolating in the house. Yes, we have gone out, otherwise we’d go crazy, but it’s very limited what we’ve done and where we’ve gone. Nothing for an extended period.

It’s getting harder and harder. I know it’s going to take a while for things to get back to normal. Even for us, there’s talk about opening the detachments again but as I’m at HQ and have very little contact with the public so it’s been said that there’s no requirement for us to go in unless work gets too busy – which, in the nature of my work, isn’t likely to happen too quickly. I’ll probably go in a couple times a week so I can ride my bike to/from and build up my endurance… but we’ll see. There’s so much in the air.

But that’s it. That’s been my last week. Feeling blah and scattered – but I know I’m not the only one who feels this way!

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